Happy New Year!



So a week or so ago I mention to Josh that I had a feeling he was going to be in the hospital for something in the near future, I didn't really think so but it just a feeling. It's been several months and praise Jesus Josh hasn't had to goto ER for anything. Well guess what. We're back at the hospital. :(

Josh started having some tightness and difficulty getting a deep breath 3-4days ago. Saturday morning it was worse and so I tool him to the doc and he said he didn't hear any wheezing or crackling but did hear some dimenished lung sounds on the right side. (I heard the same thing when I listened to him the day before) :) Anyway... so doc wanted an x-ray and sent us to the hospital ER for further testing. We spent from about noon on Saturday to 330am Sunday in the ER. He had x-rays, blood work and a CT done. He had fluid built up between the chest wall and the lungs. At 100 this morning they drained about a liter out via a very small cathater. It took him three times of poking before he got in. I guess the doc kept hitting resistance (tumor). Today Josh has felt much better. He slept REALLY good he said from 4am till 1130am when the doc came in today. He is able to breath better and doesn't feel like he needs as much O2. SO! It looks like this fluid is accumilating from the cancer and is not from infection. Bittersweet. If it was infection then it could possibly be treated. Because it is from the cancer it's just going to keep happening. When Josh starts to have symptoms ie: difficulty getting a deep breath, hard to breath then they will aspirate and remove fluid as needed. The doctor said that they could put a chest tube in (been there done that) and drain all of the fluid out and start over to see how fast it's accumilating. However when they took fluid out this am after about 800ccs it became really painful for Josh. They wouldn't be able to totally empty the fluid out via chest tube because of that reason. Wait and see. God is bigger then this and we believe this will not lead to the end! This circumstance is one more for us to surrender to God. It sucks! Yes. But it's a bump in the road to healing! God is working everyday. Proof? Well when we were sitting in ER yesterday Josh was getting pretty uncomforable and need to move around. Well I look over at him and he is lifting himself up off his chair with the strength of his arms and putting little weight on his legs (stability). Hello!?!? He hasn't done that in MONTHS! More? Since he got out of the hospital in October he hasn't been able to sit in his chair for more then and hour of two due to the bedsore he has and because it was just too painful on his whole body. Yesterday he was in his chair from 1130am to 600pm! NO real pain. Tell me God isn't working.