"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,
..."plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Wow where has the month gone? So sorry I have not been keeping the blog updated very well lately. Josh is on his last week of his second round of the Sutent. So far not many side effects this time around. His mouth is a little tender but not as bad as it was last time. This month we went to lunch once and last week Josh and I went to lunch AND to a movie all in the same day! However the next two days he slept and he was sore from getting in and out of the car, and that is why we are still looking for that perfect car with big doors so it's easier for him to transfer in and out of the car. We are searching for a '00 or newer Chrysler Concorde with tan leather interior for under 4,000. They are out there just not in our area currently. So if you know of anyone that has a car fitting our needs let me know! :) Josh finally feels up to starting physical therapy again. We are just waiting now for orders from his oncologist. His hair color that was turning gray/blonde is now back to the red/brown it was to begin with. We figure it was the Sutent that was causing the change.

Andrew has started going to school two mornings a week. LOVES it! And so does mom! He takes a good nappie when he comes home! It's nice because the school/daycare is just at the end of our road so we get to walk. He enjoyed going to VBS this week and I guess was pretty darn cute during the program last night. I didn't get to go cause I had to work. But thankfully gramma tapped it for me. He is still pretty sassy and independent, and strong willed but we are taking things one day at a time around here. No other way to do it. It seems like all he wants to do is play with his friends. Which is fine with me but when he come to ask if he can go next door to they house and jump on the trampoline my heart starts races and so bad I want to say no. Instead I say yes then stand on our side of the fence where he can't see me and watch until he is ready to come home and then I run back to the house and act like I don't know anything. He is sitting here on the table next to me telling me stories which just reminded me about his friend "fella" Andrew said "you spell it like this mom g-r-s-w-y" (when I asked him what his friends name was) anyway, Fella first showed up the other day. I was in my bedroom getting dressed and Andrew comes in "mom Fella is behind me, WHOA mom he scared me I turned around and he was right there..." At first it was kinda creepy. Then Andrew told me how Fella made a neckless at VBS too and how he is Batman and Fella is Spiderman. Interesting I tell ya.

Mr. Joshuah is my lil baby chic. His hair is finally long enough it doesn't stand strait up and not long enough to lay down so he looks like a baby chic. :) Still has strawberry blonde hair. On Thursday he rolled over from his back to his tummy. Of course nobody saw him. I made such a big deal about not rolling over for anyone but mommy or daddy and well I had him with me in the kitchen and I walked away for two mins to help Josh when I came back he was on his tummy. He panicked once he got there. So the rest of the night we had him on the floor in the living room with us in hopes he'd do it again...sure enough he did. :) I am so proud of him! Next goal sitting up then we'll talk about teeth! He is very happy and loves to watch his brother. It's sweet in the mornings after he has had his breakfast I'll lay him on Josh's lap with his bottle and every time he'll go to sleep. I call it his daddy's sweet spot. :) It was oh so sweet on Wednesday morning both boys were on Josh's lap and they were watching cartoons. It was picture perfect, that was until I got the camera.

I love my boys. All three of them. Time just seems to be going way to fast. I can't believe it's almost July. God has brought us such a long way since the beginning of this craziness we now call life. Things are looking up and we haven't had many bad days. All the thanks goes to our Lord!

OH he he he Jennifer is pregnant and that means I am finally gonna be an auntie!!! :) Not for about 7 more months but I can't hardly wait!!!!

This is one of my MOST favorite songs in the whole world. The first time I heard it was when Josh and I were in Atlanta for the Exchanged Life confrence back in May of '07. And ever since then evertime I hear this song God just speaks to me. It's like he is say I am here and I will never let go of you! I heard it on my way to work this morning and it was a good start to the day...(better then the head ache I have) If you have never heard it before just goto klove.com http://www.klove.com/Music/LyricSearch.aspx and you can listen to a sample of the song.


Matt Redman - You Never Let Go

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won’t turn back I know You are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Chorus:
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know
You here on the earth

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

Just a quick update..

We went to Medford yesterday to see Josh's oncologist. In a nutshell the CT he had done in April compared to the one he had done this week showed no growth of the tumors in his thoracic cavity(the scan was only done on that part of the body). AMEN! If anything they have gone done in size just mm. It could be the Sutent or the difference in CT machines or just a God thing ;) But it's given us a little bit of hope! Josh started his second round of the Sutent yesterday. Pray that his mouth won't get as raw this time around. It was pretty tough last month. He has had a couple good days in a row now which is a nice change from the bad days he was having. He and Andrew were playing Batman and Superman this morning...it was cute. I was in the kitchen making cookies and Josh told Superman that Robin was in the kitchen and to go give her (cause you know Robin is a girl) a BIG kiss! It was sweet. Joshy is usually Robin but this AM he just hung out and watched Andrew run back and forth, back and forth, back and.....well you get it.